God is Good

God is good. Regardless of anything else in life, that statement will stand, always.

Today was different, and should have been bad...it tried anyways. This morning, I had a tire go out on the way to work, so in the middle of a small intersection I had to get out and replace it. It helped that my co-workers were supportive and not phased by my late arrival. The first few hours at work, before lunch, were filled nonsense that isn't worth going into. I figured that I was going to lose my cool if If I didn't get myself an intervention. I met with my other boss, Matt, and asked him to join me for lunch. He realized pretty quickly that I was wearing out...but between his prayers and his goofy attitude and laughter I came back to work strong. The rest of the afternoon was great at work, I took over for the secretary at the front desk. I suppose this could have been a bad thing...but I chose to make it meaningful and fun. It helped.

I got off work at about 4:30 and started for home, glad to be done for the day (regardless of optimism). I had some time to reflect and spend in peace, but as I got out of my car, my favorite Bible fell...into a puddle. *sigh* Sometimes it rains and pours. I salvaged what I could, but I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to move on from that one. I lay in bed for about 15 mins and prayed, not really feeling in the mood...but knowing I was being unfair to God (it wasn't His fault). Afterwards, I headed to school. I figured that I could just ignore it all and put on a smile. It wouldn't have worked as well as I hoped, except that a close friend ran into me and made me smile, he's a dork, but a good one. I then apologized to God for staying in the mood as long as I had, but deep down I still felt like I was about to break...just putting on the face in the hopes that it becomes the truth.

I spent the rest of the night like that, not understanding why I couldn't just laugh or smile, but knowing that's what I needed. God knows what I needed though...worship touched my heart in a way I wasn't expecting. Especially when we sang "It is Well" and "Blessed be your Name"! I'm still working on my paper, but my friend Sam came to find me and gave me a Twix bar...explaining that it was "a good break". Sam = Awesome. I'm tired, drained, ready for bed, BUT I'm realizing that no matter what, God's peace is enough. Sometimes I just need to laugh and smile at the ridiculousness inside of me to remind myself that God is good. GOD IS GOOD!!! Amen.