Send Me

"Don't go there it's too dangerous." - Then count me in.

"It's a place of pure darkness." - A candle shines brightest in the darkest room.

"It can't be done." - Nothing is impossible with God.

"You don't know what you're doing." - True, but God does.

"There are certain places that you can't reach or preach." - I'll dance right up to the gates of Hell singing and preaching the Good News...bring it Satan!

"You don't know the cost." - My Savior did.

"You're insane." - True, but all the best people are ;) (Paraphrasing Alice and Wonderland)

"If you do this then there will be no coming back." - I better keep going forward then!


May the God who performs miracles break through to our hearts, minds, and souls :) Amen

Lead Me

"Why, if I had to pick a day to fly, oh, this would be it!" ~ Quasimodo, Hunchback of Notre Dame

God's all in. I'm ready to do the same. No turning back. No worrying about the pain. No worrying about the future. No worrying about the past. I'm here. Wherever I am placed, may I love unconditionally. Whenever I fall, may I keep going. Whenever I judge, may I be judged. Whenever I lie, may I be caught. Whenever I hurt, may I be hurt. Whenever I am in the right, may the glory go to my Lord and King.

"...And I said, "Here am I. Send me!" ~Isaiah 6:8

"So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I am called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't you lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this out home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone"

I Make War

Everything

Honestly, I've been keeping Him at a distance...because I wanted to avoid the path that I know I have to take. But I'm hurting, hurting alot tonight...I'm hurting because I just remembered why I want, pray, desire and seek to be in love with my savior...

Because while I've been sitting here hiding in my sin, He's been pulling me out of the junk that is my life...taking my punishment and pain and forgiving me as I sin. Enough. I'm fighting off apathy again, I'm standing even if it cuts deep...my savior died for me. And He loves me, oh how He loves me...why do I keep hurting Him and justifying it? Break this cold, dark and evil heart until all I have is love. Keep on breaking me. Don't quit. Don't give up on me Father, whatever pain I must take...break my sinning heart....

Remolding

Broken. A desire that my physical body has taken to faster than my spirit has. I broke my arm last night while playing with some of the Middle Schoolers. I spent most of my night trying to find a position that didn't put any pressure on it. I took prescription pain medicine last night but it's causing me to throw up and I've started running a fever...blah.

However, I have to admit, I find a good bit of humor in this situation (After all...I broke my elbow not my "funny" bone ;)

The humor comes from the fact that earlier this year I was praying for God to break me until I was solely dependent on Him. I realized about a week ago that though He got through to me through those moments...that He's going to have to keep going....

And now I'm physically broken somewhere, it's ironic :)

And it forced me to go to the doctor today...just like our spiritual brokenness should cause us to go to, our spiritual healer, Jesus Christ.

So as I thought on the fact that I'm now one-handed I realized...that's a good 5 out of ten fingers! And 5 fingers is an awful lot more than 0! :D

I think God can use the fact that I'm physically dependent in some ways that I haven't been...to remind me to be spiritually dependent in some of the ways that I haven't been as well.

So as I laugh about the irony of praying to be broken, I realize that I still drastically need God to conquer every part of my being...with it's permission or with it's full defeat and utter brokenness.

May Your power fall, may Your voice be heard, come and change my heart as I stand on Your word...Holy Spirit Reign Down.....